Relationships and Mental Illness


I know there are people who diligently do their duty, stay married and all that. I don’t see how they do it. Maybe there is a huge difference when the person owns their illness. I don’t know, because that’s not how it is in my life.

“Isn’t not my fault,” is a statement containing a limited amount of truth. Our lives are not defined by our genetics. Our lives are defined by our choices. As in – I choose to ride the motorcycle without a helmet. I choose to play games in traffic. I choose to lie to doctors, family and friends. I choose to say terrible things to the people I’m closest to.

So that leaves me with choices of my own.

There’s nothing easy in the way I choose to live from this point forward. This is going to suck, but not as bad as doing the same things over and over, expecting different results. 

Today is not just another day. Today is The Day to make as many sane choices as I can. That’s not really a big deal.

But choosing to do the sane thing today, will make tomorrow just a little bit easier. 

One step at a time, going forward, not backwards.

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Cautious Hope


I thank you all for the well-wishes.

My brother has come from Seattle to help me figure out how the nursing home works. I’ve learned a lot in a very short time. Unfortunately, there is much more to learn.

However, there is good news!

My Dad has gotten much stronger than I expected. He is still struggling with issues of brain damage from the stroke. However, he’s eating, which is a huge improvement, and the Physical Therapy is going well. 

I have discovered that I don’t like nursing homes. I don’t like the way they are always short-staffed. I don’t like the tremendous expense associated with them. I don’t like strangers taking care of my Dad.

Most of all, I don’t like the fact that I have a tendency to break out into teeth and claws when he’s not take care of the way I feel he should be treated.

When it comes to him and his care, I’m not a nice person. I’m a raving bitch.

I’m not proud of that. It’s kind of embarrassing. 

Still, we managed to get him the bladder cancer surgery he needed. The doctor used the laser like a scrub brush to abrade away the cancer cells. Dad was back to his room the same day. He slept yesterday, and was fine today. I’m pleased, it was a load off my mind!

Thanks again for the well-wishes!

Sorry for the Silence


I am sorry that I haven’t updated this blog in over a month.

My father had a stroke and is in a nursing home, an ordeal by itself.

However, I was also forced to leave Jordan’s Croft, by my husband’s mental health issues.

Everything is up in the air.

I’ve decided to do no blogging on these issues. I’ve got a couple of books to finish, so that’s what I’m doing.

I’m okay, for now, just displaced and very, very angry.

Building a Killer Email List


I’ve created a mailing list for Icy Road Publishing. You can blame David G. for it. LOL Because I’ve ‘known’ him for several years, on Authonomy and beyound, I’m willing to not only FOLLOW his advice, but to tell others about him.

The ONLY thing I’m going to do with it is send out announcements for

David Gaughran

wanted-alt71-200x300There is a lot of upheaval in publishing today and I think that’s likely to increase rather than decrease. The best insurance policy any writer can have against the future is a targeted mailing list.

I’ve written before about how the author with the biggest mailing list wins, and I’ve invited Nick Stephenson along today because he’s got some great ideas on how to boost your list.

The cool thing about his approach is that it’s something anyone can do. And, as you will see, it really, really works. Here’s Nick with more:

Building a Killer Email List

As an author, I try to read as much as possible. I tend to get excited over 8 or 9 different authors across a few different genres, and I always buy their new releases as soon as I hear about them. Whenever I find out there’s a new book on the shelves, I go…

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Finalist! Best Novella of 2014


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WOW!

“The Emissary: Journey” which is the first book of “Horsewomen of the Zombie Apocalypse” has made the finals for Best Novella of 2014.

Now, it needs your votes.

However, the site is now DOWN.

LOL

I guess I’m not the only person who is broadcasting their good fortune…and begging for votes.

I wil post the links as soon as the site is back up.

Don’t go change that channel!

Alpacas Shorn


I was starting to panic – Grumpy was carrying two bags of fleece on his little body. I knew he was suffering.

But I found a woman who would shear them for us. I helped, and the guys seemed to appreciate that it was me who held them and talked to them. They came back to the barn for food afterwards, which is always a good sign.

We have 4 bags of fleece from three alpacas. Grumpy’s is longer and bulkier than the others.

I’m going to start working on the fleeces tonight. Going to build a skirting table for the fleece and pick the second cuts and fiber out of it. The dirt will need to be washed out. Over and over again.

Swallow the Moon is #Free


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Swallow the Moon is #Free Amazon US

Swallow the Moon FREE on Amazon Australia.

Swallow the Moon – Free in Canada!

Swallow the Moon – Free in the UK!

Not sure why they did this. But Swallow the Moon is now free at Amazon US and AU.

Get your free copy now!

Amazon gave away over 450 copies yesterday. I’m amazed at how much support I got from my friends to spread the word.

Right now, the e-book is riding high at #5 on the Romance, Paranormal, Ghost list.

Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #638 Free in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Free in Kindle Store)
#5 in Kindle Store > Kindle eBooks > Romance > Paranormal > Ghosts
#6 in Kindle Store > Kindle eBooks > Romance > Holidays

I was just reading up on the Passive Voice blog about villians i.e. Maleficent.

I get to blow my own horn on this blog. LOL So I will say that characters who are ‘Pure Good’ or ‘Pure Evil’ bore me to tears. I don’t read horror, slasher or killer thriller because too often the villian is ‘Pure Evil.’

I’ve blogged about “Villians Who Eat Babies for Breakfast” in a post called ‘Over Kill’.

I’m careful to use a very light touch with “Swallow the Moon” – I give the reader plenty wiggle room to wonder how the story is going to turn out. There are levels of evil and I try to hit them all.

I’m loving this short time on the Best Seller’s List. I’m going to let it go until Amazon gives away at least 3k ebooks. Then I’ll track down the site that triggered this round of freebies and raise the price back to $0.99.

We’ll see how long it takes to get there.

Stay tuned!

“Swallow the Moon” is back at $.99 after a week as a freebie. Amazon gave away almost 1k ebooks.

That was fun!